Just for today I am more than three years in recovery. Not only from substance abuse but also in being a functional member of society and having the gift of a second chance to celebrate life. I have Cross Roads to thank for this wonderful gift. Cross Roads helped me to set a firm foundation in my recovery on which I can continue to build.
For more than 3 years I tried to stop abusing drugs, alcohol and prescription medication on my own but with no success. The end result was always the same. I would start using substances again. Eventually I experienced my rock bottom. I was admitted at Cross Roads and this is where my journey started to change. Off course I was afraid to go to treatment because who would take care of my family while I was gone. I must admit that it shocked me to see that the world does not revolve around me and that everybody was able to continue with their daily lives without me trying to control everything. This however was exactly what I needed to develop a relationship with the God of my understanding because I had to learn how to trust and have faith that everything and everyone was going to be okay. With the guidance of the counselors at Cross Roads I learnt how to look at myself, my actions, how I have harmed my loved ones and how I have harmed myself in active addiction. I was able to start working through this process in an environment where people understand the disease of addiction. Even though I knew about the 12 step fellowship, I only had the knowledge, I did not apply this knowledge in my everyday life. In Cross Roads I learnt how to apply the tools of recovery in my life. By doing this I developed love and respect for myself and a relationship with the God of my understanding.
Since I have been out of treatment I continued to apply what I have learnt in my daily life. By doing this I have learnt what it is to be a loving mother, friend, sister, daughter and employee. I am learning how to love and respect myself and how to take responsibility for my actions and by doing so I learn how to love and respect others.
Another chance at experiencing life without being dependent on substances is truly the most amazing gift. And I thank Cross Roads for helping me.